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Thoughts On Coma
03:35
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when it’s hurried
I
can’t
when I’m
faiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
thful enough
prized and buried
and made into cash
cried on the porch
gave it a plaque
when it’s
I can’t
see it as well
when it’s hurried
I can’t
see it enough
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2. |
Attic
02:48
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saw the shoe scuffs on the tile
wake up and start moving
long chalk-black wings
crawl under the doorframe
the light’s off in that room
they’re huddling together
I feel their wings hissing
they’re talking to each other
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
it’s a compulsion
hands over a candle
risk the hairline treetops
a feather dropped on granite rock
lifted vertical in the showroom
a cold slab begging to be dropped
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
did that sound come from the air
or did I invent that sound
is there ever any difference
there is someone in the house
I drill a hole into the attic
the last hidden consciousness
I find me draped in bedsheets
I find me draped in bedsheets
I find nothing there to speak of
I see pendulums below
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
how do I know
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3. |
Hospital Cop 2
02:31
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a painting of my eyes
as they wake up to the knocking
nah, it’s cool for us to meet like this
I’m in a gown and I’m sobbing
a private life
samples of my hair
ran from the knock
the knock wasn’t even there
come on, glass eyes
it doesn’t even exist
like gravity
or being alone
like human flight
like the numbers in my phone
flashlight and cuffs
the book of common prayer
ran from the knock
the knock wasn’t even there
the common dust
dies in my lungs
leave the John Glenn capsule
go out for food and regret it
still see that cop from the hospital
and we both pretend not to notice
we ran from the knock but the knock wasn’t even there
when we ran from the knock, the knock wasn’t even there
now we don’t answer phones, the phones call’s never there
we ran from the knock but the knock wasn’t even there
we ran from the knock but the knock wasn’t even there
we ran from the knock
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4. |
Quit
01:39
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bound on the carport
feel my synapse dragging me
floating above now
the sound of the world printing receipts
bad comedian
but I know that it could be funny again
bad comedian
but I know that it could be funny again
visited by strangers
kids in scrubs and policemen
thrilled to discuss it
the future like it’s medicine
bad comedian
but I know that it could be funny again
bad comedian
but I know that it could be funny again
when I quit
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split flows double
doubles the odds
of a concrete pulse
of a dead sweat camouflage
pressed
into the docks
is anybody else here dying like this?
is anybody else here dying like this?
separate
as I adjust
under forty thousand tons
under forty thousand tons
do I wait
do I wait
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6. |
Nerve Control
01:19
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///0000 00// 00 0/ /////0000// 0/// //0
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7. |
Cornered By
02:46
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in polyester
breathing in
dust from remote controls
still awake in
his living room
now I don’t feel safe alone
it’s like my will don’t count
nor my habits count
nor my reason count
now the vision pins me to the ground
corner accents
fall in love
start passing through my skull
coming up now
in another room
but I can’t remember how
it’s my fault the house don’t want me
cornered by the plaster breathing
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someone gets called to find the teeth
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9. |
Breakers
01:26
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leave the bedroom
and the current takes a nosedive
first time I turn a vacuum on in months
reach the breakers
and find snake skins in the basement
drag a flashlight across the ground to find my daughters or sons
convinced at last
the glass block honey plants
could be raised again
by some kind of abstinence
curious I fall
for this trick
daily
trapped in sheets
a handful of bees, thank god
house snakes
dry up in the street, thank god
shopping lists
false positives, thank god
the kitchen tiles looks cleaner
moonlit, thank god
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10. |
K
01:08
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fell straight through
the particle board
like it wasn’t there
and he thanked the lord
have to ask
for better luck
night and day
if you keep it up
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11. |
I Run With Goon
02:41
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bought soda for two
for one
five blocks and they’re empty
I try to talk to the city but it won’t talk back
just holding the fingers of the enemy
but an ad in a magazine that I know I saw
asked me to kill for the attention
dead sleep for a week and then I found some paint
with plans to copy his tag
until he seeks me out
to start at the edges
to use restraint
then circle in to the thick of it all
we’d be scared at first
then laugh, and shake, and move
to claim every corner
to end the evening on his roof
where he’ll tell me everything
and we’ll meet the next afternoon
to tell the city “we don’t believe in you”
I can’t believe I run with Goon
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12. |
Mona Lisa Boys
04:15
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a diet ice, no forget it
mona lisa boys
in the public sphere, I don’t get it
I unhook my voice
it shook without trying
I collect myself back to nothing
die to be touched
mona lisa boys
that’s the character
and that’s me right there
if I forget it enough
mona lisa boys
a new bravery
is here
dying to start my research
a blanking out of the self
I try to cross the street running
but I hit the parade
I’m five again
on my parent’s shoulders
caught in my mouth
the shadows of steel drums and waving hands
die to be touched
mona lisa boys
that’s the character
and that’s me right there
woke up in my childhood bed
hear breakfast in the next room
start studying the curtains
start to feel them unravel
die to be touched
mona lisa boys
that’s the character
and that’s me right there
if I forget it enough
mona lisa boys
the new bravery
it’s here
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13. |
Dead Action
03:04
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falling asleep
I move against the dead action
bound by the feet
sprint away from dead action
the blurry pile of clothes
and forgotten paperbacks
keeping awful hours
and dreaming of a pact
white shirt and jeans
and I’m wearing the same thing
I greet them with an axe, move it through their chest
collapse in dead action
ran back to the trees
and cowered underneath
god did I wanna live
with hands around my knees, my dead action
ushered to the future by the bloody JFK
thought I knew Kennedy parts the other way
introduced this kid
he says he’d be my son
I can’t believe my dead action
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tried to leave
now coming back
the pleasure center,
buried maps
six a.m.
diner doors
read the paper
with seniors
I thought I was above the catholic schools
they’re only names
but my body is the catholic schools
my eyes catch this face
Margaret
resurrected
the crying relief
of seeing a cartoon of your face
Margaret
you expected
the crying relief
and the rot inside this place
eighteen years in the barrel
scattered buckshot at the exit
I saw you ten years later
you were faking an Irish accent
from County Cork
but still engage
with scores from last night’s
high school games
it’s the spell
it’s the cord around my waist
tethered to some real estate
when I met the freezing highway
I set off to disappear
now come on Marge, tell me
how’d you know we’d meet back here
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15. |
How Do I Quit This Band
02:36
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the can lights blink themselves awake
and I’m blinking too
are we partners in this enterprise
they laugh, “we thought you knew”
I let him leave the lamp light on
I let him hold my hand
well that’s long enough
how do I quit this band
memorize the copy
on a frozen bag of snap peas
an echo of my concrete pulse
as I fail to fall asleep
wake up feeling like a rotter
act like I’m reading the news
thinking when I was fifteen
crying when he bought me shoes
now I keep a calendar, cut out costs
or did I misunderstand
that never factored in
how do I quit this band
homemade tea arrives at my door
a call about the music stand
while they love me full stop
how do I quit this band
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